The Human Whisperer
It was one of the worst days of my life. My friend Shannon had died. It was about 2 weeks after she’d had a successful stem cell transplant – her prognosis had been good. Except now she was dead. I almost threw up when her partner John told me, my knees threatened to buckle, white-knuckled fingers held the top of our kitchen island so that I wouldn’t crumble. The rest of my day was bi-polar. I’d be okay for a few minutes, but then I’d choke on sobs – I couldn’t breathe. The pit of my stomach was roiling – my own internal hurricane – I kept swallowing bile.
We watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button – a really bad choice when one of your best friends has just died. Life and death are so skewed in that film. I collapsed in bed at the end of the night – another crying jag – David smoothing his hands across my back – me trying to catch my breath – clutching for calm before the emotions slammed me again.
Our cat, Minuit, leapt onto the bed. She dropped a soft toy on my chest. It was part of a monster doll set – little plush pieces that velcroed together – you could add an arm or an extra eye, a tail or horns – like making your very own tribe of Wild Things.
“Honey,” I said to her. “I can’t. I can’t play right now.” Minuit liked you to throw the toy and she’d fetch it for you – it was one of her favourite games. I took the toy away and stashed it in my bedside table. David held me as I started to cry once more.
A few minutes later, Minuit dropped another piece on me.
“Minuit. No. I can’t.” That piece, too, ended up in the bedside table.
A few minutes later – another piece, and then, when I refused the throw that one, another… and another… and another…
She didn’t want to play. She was bringing me gifts. We were on the second floor, and every time I took a toy, she’d tromp two floors down to the basement – jump into the toy box to find a piece and she’d offer it to me.
I can so relate to this. Our now gone beloved cat Lucky was particlarly keyed in to ones emotional state. It actually angers me when people speak of cats in a manner of reference as unfeeling, selfish and very stand offish. I love cats! …I love the dogs too, but cats hold a special place in my heart!