PMS Dance Party
The days of miracles have returned! I am the living, breathing recipient of a freaking miracle! PRAISE BE TO EVERY GODDESS ASSOCIATED WITH THE FEMININE CYCLE!! For the first time in over 8 years, my period is LATE!!! (insert Hallelujah Chorus here)
It has been almost 5 weeks since my last cycle. To some women – this is a nothing, a bit of fluff in the great scheme of things. Some women have long, irregular cycles as a matter of course. Not I. Lately, I was down to the 15 or 17 day cycle. Now every time I go to pee – knowing that I’m past my ‘regular’ cycle, I do a spot check. Seriously. “Am I bleeding? Now? “How ’bout now?”
This means that for over a month I haven’t had to be drugged! Well, not for this. I have a spring in my step, a swagger in my walk, a smile in my speech – all the time. Well, most of the time.
Yesterday, I might have wanted to kill all living things in my house. Blinding rage when they had the nerve to ask me how my day was, or whether or not one of them had time for a dentist appointment today. “Why should I know, what YOUR schedule is?!?
I went driving and had to stop myself from forcing idiot drivers off the freaking road. “Oh, you had to turn there?!? Do you know what a fucking turn signal is?!? DO YOU, YOU YELLOW RAT BASTARD?!?“
I was packaging books to ship and became so stressed that my angina kicked in. I cried in the parking lot after buying food for dinner.
That’s when it struck me that my behaviour was not in the normal range. Disproportionate emotional response to stimuli, weepiness, revenge fantasies… this was PMS. REALLY BAD PMS. Crazy-ass PMS which apparently has me teetering on the edge of The Cliffs of Insanity. Worse PMS than usual. Is that the trade-off? Longer periods, but I might get arrested for manslaughter? I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I might prefer the saner, shorter periods. Seriously. If I’m going to turn into an emotional fuck nut who is pissed off at the world – who scares her spouse, child and pets… I’ll take a little more blood, more frequently and just spend those first two days drugged out of mind.
